God is Good...All the Time

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"Let the King of my heart
Be the wind inside my sails
The anchor in the waves
Oh oh, He is my song
Let the King of my heart
Be the fire inside my veins
The echo of my days
Oh, He is my song.

'Cause You are good
You are good, oh-ohh
'Cause You are good

You are good, oh-ohh
'Cause You are good
You are good, oh-ohh
'Cause You are good

You are good, oh-ohh

You're never gonna let
You're never gonna let me down
And You're never gonna let

You're never gonna let me down
You're never gonna let

You're never gonna let me down

You're never gonna let

You're never gonna let me down"

King of My Heart, Bethel Music

For starters, if you have not listened to this song, I highly encourage you do. I love how it will randomly pop in my head at the most appropriate moments reminding me that He has this all under control.

But...you all! This is a celebration post! I have SO much to be thankful for. So much. I have always known this, but today just reminded me that every point where I've felt low eventually turns into something better. God is so good. It's also 11:20 at night, and I am exhausted. However, I want to capture all the joy I'm feeling right now!

My appointment with my oncologist today went great. She said there was a "considerable" difference in the size of the tumor in my right breast. She kept pressing around and, quite frankly, seemed amazed at how drastic of a difference there has been after just one treatment. I'm going to be honest - I felt around yesterday (which I haven't done at all) and could not find the lump. Your prayers are being heard and are working. I am confident in that! So this news was win #1!

Win #2 was the results of my MRI. Last month, they did a CT scan and found a 7cm lesion on my liver. The radiologist and my oncologist did not know what it was, but they did not suspect it was metastatic breast cancer. I went for an MRI last Monday, but the results were inconclusive. My oncologist ordered for another MRI with a different contrast, but insurance denied it. Then another God wink occurred -  they ended up approving it over the weekend and I went back this past Tuesday. The results showed it is a focal nodular hyperplasia, which is essentially a benign tumor that has no chance of becoming malignant. So, what causes this you ask? Birth control pills. And considering I had been on them for 17 years up until the end of October, this result does not surprise me. But, win #2 is the cancer has NOT spread! Praise Jesus!

I am so grateful to have a God who never lets me down. Ever. Even when we've hit rough patches, I am always reminded He is crafting his plan and has my best interest at heart. And quite frankly, going through all of this has strengthened my faith to a level I didn't know was possible. God is not a waiter; you don't get to choose from the Menu of Life what you want to order. If that was the case, we'd all be ordering "Happily Ever After" with a side of "Prince Charming." But growth doesn't happen there! Growth happens when you get kicked down and feel like you can't get back up. Growth happens when you find yourself gasping for air because you just received earth shattering news. Growth happens when you are broken and ugly, crying on your bathroom floor, and feel Him wrap his arms around you to let you know He's got this! He is not a waiter, nor a magician, but man...he is a great listener and he WANTS a relationship with you. I can promise this.

God is good....all the time. 

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